The First Time Back on The Road…

Two months to the day that habeebana Tehseen left this world, I got back on the road, and started travelling again. I am going on a short tour of Asia in regards to a number of the Mercy Mission projects I am currently involved with.


From the outset the trip is one that I was not looking forward to simply because of the travel. Leaving somewhere on Sunday afternoon and arriving on Tuesday morning, I am sure is a prospect many of us would find at best daunting. But nevertheless as I set off, and began the journey, I just reflected on the enormity of the privilege Allah Subhana had given me. Not only did I have the life to even make the trip, but also Allah subhana was putting to my service all the conveniences of modern travel, an A380, laptop for the journey, access to business lounges as I crossed the world, and not a single problem with where to pray (even though the time is very difficult to work out sometimes!). This reality has made the trip so much easier as I left my parents and wife and child in Amaanah.


Brothers and sisters, it is something that I recommend us all to do more, and that is truly reflect on the bounties of Allah. Sure, we are all human and have a moan about X and Y, but by Allah, we are some of the most privileged people walking the face of this planet. Those of us living in the West, find the world at our feet, and as such we must make better use of our time. As per the advice of our habib,


“Take advantage of five matters before five other matters: your youth, before you become old; and your health, before you fall sick; and your richness, before you become poor; and your free time before you become busy; and your life, before your death.” 


We must find the people of khair in our localities and cling to them to be of those that used their time well and can be raised in a most beautiful manner on the great day. Wherever you live you will find a people or person who can get you the shade of Allah, so seek them out, embrace them and go and win the pleasure of Allah, as per the hadith of Bukhari, ‘There are seven whom Allah ill shade in His Shade on the Day when there is no shade except His Shade: a just ruler; a youth who grew up in the worship of Allah, the Mighty and Majestic; a man whose heart is attached to the mosques; two men who love each other for Allah’s sake, meeting for that and parting upon that; a man who is called by a woman of beauty and position [for illegal intercourse], but be says: ‘I fear Allah’, a man who gives in charity and hides it, such that his left hand does not know what his right hand gives in charity; and a man who remembered Allah in private and so his eyes shed tears.’ 


This advice is primarily to myself, as I was moaning about the Australia trip only until I started it and realized what an ungrateful soul I was to moan. I wonder how much those that have returned to Allah would give to again travel in his path in Dunya?


Allah forgive me and give me strength.


With Hardship Comes Ease..

With Hardship Comes Ease…


This weekend was a bizarre one. A time of many lessons and too many ayaat of Allah being realized in front of my very eyes. My wife, may Allah have mercy on her, gave birth to our first child. And through the trauma that precedes the arrival of a new born, I was able to reflect on the blessings of Allah and the reality of so many of his verses as I witnessed the arrival of my daughter. Having been blessed with a docking station for my iPhone in the delivery room, and being able to play the Quran through the 11hour experience, moments of clarity came upon us as a mercy through the whole encounter.


For the purposes of this post, I just want to reflect on some of them:


Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest. (Qur’an, 13: 28)

As we witnesses the miracles of human birth, it was clearly a very difficult time. However, as the ayat of Allah played out in the room, there was a bizarre tranquility. As we listened to Mishary Al Afasy and Saad Al Ghamadi in the room, it allowed us to focus on the enormity of what was happening and the FACT that Mrs Kidwai was definitely able to successfully deliver our child.


Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear… (Qur’an, 2:286)

Ultimately this was the biggest reminder and the guiding hand through the whole labour process. And every time there would be a sense of unbearable pain, this ayat came upon our lips, and a sense of calm returned. It was truly humbling for ourselves to be blessed with the desire and the tawfique to have these ayat in our mind and our ears, and inshAllah was a lesson for the non-Muslim nursing staff; may Allah guide them all.


We relate to you, [O Muhammad], the best of stories in what We have revealed to you of this Qur’an although you were, before it, among the unaware. (Qur’an, 12:3)

Truly the value of the Quran shines through its stories. I remember how much comfort we took from listening to the story of Maryam. You could escape the modern and excellent facilities that we were in to imagine our beloved Maryam (AS) situation when she was giving birth to Isa, Alayhisalam. As she sat with just the trunk of a tree, and we had the best of facilities, it was an awesome reminder of the blessings of Allah upon us.


Verily, with every hardship comes ease” (Qur’an, 94:6)

Finally, literally one month to the day, that my habeeb, Tehseen returned to Allah, my daughter came to this world to provide some distraction from the massive chasm in my life. wAllahi, it has been the most difficult time in my life, and the last few days with the coming of my daughter have proven a distraction I needed from the massive sorrow in my heart.


These are just some reflections from an amazing weekend, and I pray Allah gives us all the Tawfique to come closer to his book. A final thought to leave you with, that as I walked away from the borth center, I had a massive urge to call my habib, even though he had left this world. And in the end after I wiped my tears, I decided to call his father instead, and share my news with him, and I did so remembering the words of Allah,“The Mu’minoon are but a single Brotherhood.” (The Holy Qur’an, 49:10)

GhafarAllahu Abu Ubaydah

So, its been a week or so, since I relaunched this blog, but have struggled to find the opportunity to write here again. Its been very difficult to say the least as had a monster week last week with AlKauthar duties, and then we had a massive course on the weekend. But there were many lessons from the weekend which forced me to make some time for this today.

Life is short guys and I know we have all come to feel that even more with the loss of our habib, Abu Ubaydah. Nevertheless, how we use it, is something that is more important than the time we get in the first place. Consider those that have a long and old age, but leave this world with very little. And then look at those who lead a very short life, but it is one that is full of benefit for the individual and the world around them.

On Saturday morning I arrived at 0700 at The Hilton in Bradford, and over the next 2 hours I saw three hundred people file into the main hall there in anticipation of the acclaimed, Prayer Makes Perfect course from AlKauthar. The course on the Fiq of Salah which was sold out, was full of lessons on life not only for the students who came to benefit from the knowledge but also for the organisers on the importance of having Himmah and confidence in Allah.

Approximately two years ago, a discussion had occurred on the need of launching AlKauthar in the city, and at the time Abu Ubaydah had been adamant, that we should launch in the city, and have tawaqul that if we seek to raise the name of Allah, he the Most Wise, would bless it and the city would become a leading city and hundreds of people would come at a time to learn the religion. At the time some of us, including me, had no doubt about that, but were unsure if Bradford had the correct demographic. Over the weekend we saw the true weight of having 100% tawaqul in Allah, as the city of Bradford finally reached the milestone it awaited; to be a sold out city, alhamdulillah. The city has steadily grown over the last couple of years and reached the milestone on the back of a team, who have only one purpose; to have the optimal number of people learning about the religion of Allah at their hands. Can there be anything more powerful in this world than an inspired believe? Surely not.

Brothers and sisters, life is short and as such its critical we live it in a way that pleases the creator and serves the needs of the creation. When one makes the pleasure of Allah ones purpose you find every challenge in life bows its head to you. Serving Allah without fear and complete confidence in him should be our modus operandi and once we make it that, we will find the world become an easier place to navigate. Consider the story of Imam Ahmad and Abul Haitham.

When Imam Ahmad was being led to the ruler’s court to be whipped over his firm position that the Quran was NOT created despite him being pressured to make the statement. Imam Ahmad began to entertain the thought, that maybe he should agree with them in public, even though he didn’t believe it in his heart? Ultimately one of the purposes’ of the shariah is to preserve life, so surely avoiding torture would be a valid excuse to make a false statement. He genuinely feared torture and as such began to seriously consider this.

As he walked, emerged a man, Abul Haitham, and he said, ya imam, if you look at the records, I am the most whipped person in the city. I have been beaten 18000 times, and that is because I am a thief. I follow shaytaan and fulfil my desires and am willing to face the whip for that pleasure. Now consider yourself, you serve Allah and you follow his messenger, you should not fear the whip as you are on something so much better. Stay firm and stay on the truth.

Imam Ahmad was humbled by this and from this stayed firm on his belief and the consequential punishments and as such made it his practise to make dua for this Abul Haitham and thus was known to often say, GhafarulAllahu Abul Haitham.

Brothers and sisters, keep your convictions and confidence in Allah and all will be good, and join me in making dua for our habeeb, GhafarAllahu Abu Ubaydah, who has taught us so many lessons in his living and dying.


“If a man loves his brother, he should tell him that he loves him.” [Abu Dawud]



Abu Hurayra reported that the Messenger of Allah, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, said, “Allah Almighty will say on the Day of Rising, ‘Where are those who loved one another for the sake of My majesty? Today, on the day when there is no shade but My shade, I will shade them.'” [Muslim]


This is an amazing hadith, and one that excites me every time I come across it. One of the main reasons why I take so much benefit from this hadith and really love it, is when you reflect on it you cannot help but reflect on the true greatness of Allah Subhana. It must make you ponder on just how amazing Allah is, and how truly he is the Most Merciful by the fact, Allah, the lord of the Worlds rewards you for simply taking one of the greatest pleasures of this world, and that is the love of one another!


When one loves a person for the sake of Allah, they truly find themselves taking from the pleasures of this world. A true friend really has no price, as every single trial they make it easier and every happiness they make it happier. And therefore, when one has such a friend, its difficult to see why would Allah reward you for this, as the love that is at the heart of that relationship feels like a blessing enough. Nevertheless, truly Allah loves his slaves, and made Jannat for them to enjoy. We know there will come a time when we will face our reckoning, a time when our own parents will turn their backs on us and the sun will be so close it will be unimaginable, and yet amongst this hysteria we find there will be a people who will escape it, and who are these? Well amongst those are simply those that loved for the sake of Allah, subhan Al Malik.


Allah truly is Al Karim, the Most Generous.


As you know in recent days, I lost my habib, Tehseen, and I have been pondering on inshAllah, when we will be reunited, and I just ask Allah it is in Firdaus Al Aala, with the Prophet, Upon Whom Be Peace & Blessings and his as’haab. And only today, I had a call from an old friend about a dream he had last night, and it was amazing to hear and really made my day. He said he saw Tehseen and I at the Kaaba together and our Shaikh, Ibrahim Al Fouzan, Hafizullah Wa’ra, was also there.


It was amazing to hear this, as truly the three of us loved for the sake of Allah when we were together and I just ask Allah to unite us in such amazing circumstance as the brother dreamt.


I think the point of the post is brothers and sisters, never lose hope in the mercy of Allah, and truly love one another for his sake, your dunya and akhira will truly be the better for it. And if you do love someone for Allah’s sake, do yourself a favor and remind them of it…


Anas reported that a man was with the Prophet, may Allah bless him and grant him peace, when a man passed by him and said, “O Messenger of Allah, I love this man.” The Prophet said to him, “Have you informed him?” He said, “No.” He said, “Inform him,” and he caught up with him and said, “I love you for the sake of Allah.” He said, “The One for whom you love me has made me love you.” [Abu Dawud]

One of Us Arrived At The End of The Road…


Salamalaykum Warahamatullahi Wabarakatahu

inshAllah you are all well.

I guess its weird writing here, as its literally been a few years since I was here. What brought me here? One word, Nostalgia. As you may have heard, this journey that I embarked upon in 2008 with my habib Tehseen Khan, has taken a major hit, it has lost my partner, my friend, my brother, and part of myself, it has lost Abu Ubaydah Tehseen Ali Khan. 

On Sunday 3rd February he returned to Allah after a long fight with Cancer, mashAllah he was patient through the whole battle with his tumour, until Allah finally took him back after expiating him for much time. 

I have spent the last week fighting back the tears and trying somehow to come to terms with losing what seems like to be own soul, and in that process someone sent me some of my own advice from several years ago from this very blog. This prompted me to come back here and to start writing again, and inshAllah share some of my thoughts and observations like I used to. I may have lost much of my inspiration and my co-writer, but inshAllah have a commitment to continue to call to good. I will inshAllah be joined now and again by a guest, a dear friend, and companion of Tehseen’s and mine over the last few years. Saj. Give him a warm welcome guys.


So here we are, its good to be back, and I leave you with some advice from my former co-writer, Tehseen Ali Khan Rahimullah Ta’la: 

What Is All The Fuss About? And What Can I Do???

There is a place which is a truly blessed place on this planet. It is:


  1. Home to The Second Masjid On Earth, Which was First Built By Adam, Rebuilt by Ibrahim With Is’haaq. Redeveloped By Da’ud, Completed By Sulayman, and after many years of being occupied by the enemies of Allah, it was retaken by Umar
  2. It is home to the place where the messenger of Allah tied the buraaq to as he went to meet his lord
  3. It is from where the Prophet went to the heavens to meet his lord.
  4. It is from here that Prophet Muhammad Lead All the Prophets in Prayer


And is this true nobility which forces me to speak about this place here today, as despite recent times bringing to Muslim lands, earthquakes, floods, the disaster in Ghazza is the hardest to bear, on that most blessed land. The monumental events which this Ummah is currently living through though, should serve as a reminder for us all, and that being to return back to Allah and his religion, and when we see the tragedy of Ghazza, this must seek to do one thing only, to inflame our determination and ambition. We Must Be Hopeful For What The Future Holds And What Will Emerge!


The great history of our Ummah is a testimony to this, as we find when we examine when the Muslims have had to struggle through difficult situations, through this they have reflected and rekindled a hunger for Islam.



The bloody events, tragic scenes; murder and destruction in such a barbaric manner from a people who do not have any feelings of humanity or mercy is a tragedy which makes one’s heart shiver and ones eyes flood with tears. Yet our brothers and even sisters, still challenge their occupiers with their rocks and stones, they meet the tanks with their sling shots, and they meet the weapons of the richest army on the planet, with their hands raised up to the king of the planet, the king of kings, Allah Subhana.


And therefore I ask you now, join them in that, and ask Allah to give them the strength they need to meet their enemy. This religion of ours is a practical one, and thus the biggest and best weapon you have is dua, so use it. As they use their weapons, you use yours & ask the Creator to have mercy on them.



In recent times we have heard some Muslims, make a strange call for peace talks even now. Despite our brothers and sisters standing firm with their leadership, we find people sat here from the luxuries of their housing, calling for the Palestinians to back down even from their efforts to protect their honour, in favour of peace talks. My dear brothers and sisters, what kind of peace can be expected from a people who keep no trusts or covenants?


Therefore if you are guilty of such thinking, think again. The Prophet sallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said, as narrated by Abu-Moosa, may Allaah be pleased with him: “The example of the unity of the Muslims is like the example of a single structure, its parts strengthening and supporting one another” (Bukhaari & Muslim). And therefore for you is to stand with them, united.

They, Al Yahood, Lanat Allah, Alay, have diversified their methods of committing crimes and massacres; and by doing so they are continuing their disgraceful history which is full of outrageous acts, betrayal, treachery, evil and lies. After all these are the people who kill their Prophets, so is it any surprise they have no value for Ahmed or Khowla, Muhammad or Khadija, or any single Phalesteeni?


They are committing massacres every day and they are deliberately seeking to humiliate the Muslims, and most of all, to destroy the will of the Muslim nation and its hunger to struggle on.


But this is far from the truth; the Palestinian Muslims have indeed set an excellent example and produced heroic personalities, they insist on struggling on and not surrendering – despite the massacres and the hundreds of martyrs that have emerged from these, regardless of the thousands of injured, the countless hostages and the complete siege which is currently surrounding all their cities and villages; despite all of this, the Phalesteenis will continue to insist that there will be no surrender, and this is truly something noble my dear brothers and sisters. These people of ours, may Allah preserve them, are truly ayaat from Allah Subhana, and their resistance a true evidence to the ayat of the Quran, when Allaah says;


أَنتُمْ أَشَدُّ رَهْبَةً فِي صُدُورِهِم مِّنَ اللَّهِ

that which translates as: “You [believers] are more fearful within their hearts than Allaah …” (Al-Hashr: 13).


And therefore we need to respect their position, honour their strength and learn the lessons of how to live upon the advice of ‘Umar, may Allaah be pleased with him, like they do, as he said: “Do not fall short in your ambitions, because I do not know anything that prevents people from achieving might and power more than not being ambitious.”


Therefore my dear brothers and sisters, I stand here, and say, that inshAllah this struggle will continue, and the battle between Truth and evil, will continue, and inshAllah, like in the past, something truly amazing will emerge from this.



The history of Islam is a testimony to the fact that during such difficult periods from this nation emerge great people. Anas bin Maalik, may Allaah be pleased with him, narrated that the Prophet sallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said: “The example of my nation is like that of the rain, no one knows whether its beginning is better or its end.” (Ahmad, Tirmidhi & Ibn Hibbaan).



And this is because, as the Prophet sallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam, said: “Allaah continues to bring from this nation devoted people whom He uses in His obedience.” (Ahmad, Ibn Maajah & Ibn Hibbaan).


These events are predestined and decreed upon our nation so that it may wake up, realise the message that it should be carrying, and unite it’s ranks all under one banner, the banner of laa ilaaha illallah Muhammadun rasoolullaah. It must do this with sincerity and commit to ensuring its sovereignty, and do so without depending on the enemies of Allaah for support. Allaah says;


يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا إِن تَنصُرُوا اللَّهَ يَنصُرْكُمْ وَيُثَبِّتْ أَقْدَامَكُمْ


 that which translates as, “O you who believe, if you support [the religion of] Allah, He will support you and plant firmly your feet.” (Muhammad: 7).


The wisdom of Allah is great, and as he is the Most Just, put your

faith in him, and only him, and prepare for the solution to come. We must be confident, and we must never be helpless. The Prophet sallallaahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said: “Allaah narrowed the earth for me and gave me the ability to see the east and the west (i.e., of the globe). The dominion of my nation will reach all that which Allaah made me see.” (Muslim). 


Therefore we know the victory is with Islam, not just in the Holy land, but across the face of the planet, and all what we see come to us, is to prepare us for the challenges that lay ahead. Taking this religion to every corner of the world is something that is not easy and requires sacrifice, and much has been made to get here, and much more is required until the last day.


And as I stand here before you, on the member of the Messenger of Allah, an ayat from the Quran rings in my head:


يُرِيدُونَ لِيُطْفِؤُوا نُورَ اللَّهِ بِأَفْوَاهِهِمْ وَاللَّهُ مُتِمُّ نُورِهِ وَلَوْ كَرِهَ الْكَافِرُونَ


“And they wish to put out the light of Allah, and Allah will never let this happen, despite the disbelievers hating it” (As Saff, 8).


Subhan Al Malik, isn’t that what we see. When we see the Masjid Al Aqsa, the first Qibla of Islam, blockaded, when we see the Masaajid of Ghazza blown up, when we see the Muslim, children, women and elderly murdered before our very eyes, do we not see an effort to extinguish the light of Ar Rahman? By Allah, we see it, and then doesn’t this ayat, just bring comfort to your heart, dear brothers and sisters know that Allah will never let them fulfil their plan, no matter how much they hate it.


Dear brothers and sisters this is why we must be an optimistic nation, because faith and pessimism cannot co-exist. As we know the victory is with Islam, and thus how can we be pessimistic? To give up hope, is to give up on the mercy of Allaah, and surely that is from disbelief, as Allaah says;


إِنَّهُ لاَ يَيْأَسُ مِن رَّوْحِ اللّهِ إِلاَّ الْقَوْمُ الْكَافِرُون


 that which translates as: “… Indeed, no one despairs of relief from Allaah except the disbelieving people.” (Yoosuf: 87).



The current hardship in Philasteen is not the first and nor will it be the last; our nation has been afflicted by many adversities, some far harsher than what we are seeing in Ghazza today, yet our nation never gave in and continued to struggle and fight until Allaah granted it victory.


Therefore we as people of this city must too play a part in this struggle and take practical measures to aid the Muslims, and thus I present to you the advice of our Shaikh Saleh Al Munajid, Hafiz Ullah:



1. You have to make du’aa’; Ask Allah, and Ask With Conviction; Badr.


2. Collect charity and send it through trustworthy channels.

3. Support the weak and oppressed in all ways, including the media and the internet.


4. Ask the scholars, daa’iyahs, khateebs and writers to explain the oppression that is happening and the negligence on the part of the ummah, and to mobilize the ummah to defend the holy places.


5. Doing as much damage as possible to the enemies who are in a state of war with us, through boycotting their products and supporting alternatives.



And finally, I say it is critical that all this is reinforced by a general hope in the Mercy and Wisdom of Allah. The Muslims can never become helpless, and learn from the resolve of the Palestinians themselves, and take the words of. Ismael Haniya, Hafiz Ullah, who said three days ago;


“Whatever the cost, the continuation of the Israelis massacre will neither break our will nor our aspirations for freedom”


We must remember that Allah is the All wise, and thus if we don’t understand the situation, we should simply quieten and seek to improve our understanding. A most practical way to do this is to explore the history of this religion. As If one studies the history of the Muslim Ummah, we find the Ummah emerges from these hardships and overcomes its pain, indeed this pain acts as an energizer for the struggle to continue until victory comes.



This nation has been through ups and downs; its men became weak and were succeeded by a new generation of men who went on to make history. If our nation, which Allaah has honoured over all others, is seemingly week today, then history testifies that through weakness and its purification, greatness emerges & this is a great indication for the present time in which we are living.

When In Doubt?

فَاسْأَلُواْ أَهْلَ الذِّكْرِ إِن كُنتُمْ لاَ تَعْلَمُون

“If you do not know this, ask the followers of earlier revelation” [21:07]

My brothers and Sisters, as I watch the affair of the Muslims in Philisteen unfold, I am speechless. For those that know me, they will know this is something that rarely happens.


With that in mind, I refer you to the words of our beloved our Shaikh, Ahmed ibn Ajmi.


If you know Arabic, take 10 minutes and watch this, if not. Ask Allah to have mercy on your brothers and sisters in Philisteen who are returning to Allah, testifying to Taweheed, at the hands of the decendents of pigs and monkeys. Your brothers and sisters are paying the same price of Tawheed as the Salaf, the only difference is, when they turn around to see who has their back, they see nothing but the pleasure lands of Ahlul Arab, and no men behind them.


I ask Allah to give you, me, and the Ummah of Muhammad the tawfique to rise to this occassion, by all means neccessary.


Allah huma Ar Hamhum